profile I'm adyla & i'm 19. I don't plan to delete this blog for now. Although I won't be active here anymore. So please visit me in my new blog, thanks. goal To upgrade. To achieve. To graduate. With rainbow colours. archives November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 the tagboard
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Friday, January 30, 2009 @ 10:56 PM
shake it off I have a very bad habit that I can't seem to shake off. Its like my only personal best friend that has been there for the past years. It started when I was younger, by accident. I never really thought of it as a habit that time. I never really viewed it as something serious. I was young. I didn't know it had a name. But when I knew of its name. Of its source and how it came about, by accident again. I started to realize that its quite serious. The habit is not often. But still... Something that has been there for years. Wouldn't it be risky to just let it continue? What if I wait any longer and I won't be able to let it go? I don't care what others say, I've read this I've read that and there so many different opinions about it. Some people support it, some don't.The main reason I just wanna get this thing out of my life is basically coz I feel like I'm living a double life. And I really wanna follow the straight path. I always feel as if I'm lying to myself. Like I'm lying to my own friends. My own family. They think I'm so good, pious maybe. But truth is I'm fighting with my own devil within me. I know my character is sometimes very silly and I do get people laughing at me because of it. But its okay. The next time when you see me, I hope you understand that no matter how goody I appear to be.I once shouted at my own mother, made my dad cry and almost ruined my own life. And I'm still battling this silent battle with myself against this habit I have. |