profile I'm adyla & i'm 19. I don't plan to delete this blog for now. Although I won't be active here anymore. So please visit me in my new blog, thanks. goal To upgrade. To achieve. To graduate. With rainbow colours. archives November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 the tagboard
affiliates My Crazy Sister, Zimah My Beloved Cuzzie, Nina My Beloved Cuzzie, Nisa My Beloved Cuzzie, Tasha My Lovely Sister, Kak Rufi My Close Gf, Shimma My Bestie, Charlotte My Close Gf, Syafiqah My Close Gf, Ain My Loving Friend, Aqidah My Adorable Buddy, Kathy My Sweet Friend, Taufiq My Cute Classmate,Janice My Cute Classmate's BF,Eugene S'pore Poly Make-Up Artiste Club credits you can remove this if you don't have a conscience. i assure you i will not hunt you down. skin by: Jane |
Friday, August 22, 2008 @ 7:48 AM
catch me again every time i fall Young girl of only eighteen I had some trouble with myself You were always there to help me But you always belonged to someone else Will you mind spending everyday Out in the corner in the pouring rain? Look out for this girl with the broken smile Ask me if i want to stay awhile? And will i be loved. Will i be loved? You know all of the things that make me who i am You know my goodbye means nothing at all So come back and catch me again every time i fall I'll tap on your window and knock on your door But will you make me feel beautiful? Sunday, August 17, 2008 @ 12:00 PM
he just turned 68yrs old It was his birthday the day before. And he turned 68 yrs old. The following day. Friday night, at 10pm. He passed away. My Grandfather. I spent a whole day at my grandma's place yesterday. And i'm going again later. I have two more assignments and a task to do. But frankly speaking, i just don't have the mood to do anything. The sombre atmosphere i've been experiencing the past two days has drained most of my energy to do my schoolwork and the website due. But i'll try. I have to. That friday night, at 11pm. My mother and i went to Tan Tock Seng hospital because my auntie called. She said the doctor called her previously and said that my grandfather was found lying on the ground by the roadside. His motorbike, lying nearby. We got there, and we waited for a very long time. Most of my aunties and my grandma thought it wasn't something serious. Because, even though my grandfather had some leg problems, but overall he was actually quite strong. Then when the doctor came out, he told us a very long-winded story. About how they found him, to what happend in the ambulance and what they did upon reaching the emergency room. " ...we tried a lot of things...we tried to revive him.." My aunties were practically going "Huh? What are you trying to say??" Basically they just wanna know what happened to him, like maybe he is in a critical condition, or maybe he needs an operation or something. They never expected him leaving forever. Once we found out he passed away. Suddenly, everyone started crying. I consoled my mother and my aunties. I think my uncles were crying too, not sure though. I was the only grand-child there, but later, my cousin came too. There has been a number of times, i read storybooks that involves someone dying. Maybe a mother or the sister or whoever it is. And sometimes they give the last goodbye kiss or touch to the late person. And the description for that was: cold. So i never knew how to imagine, how 'cold' a dead person can be. So when i can kissed my grandfather on the forehead, i knew how it felt. However, when i look at his face and knowing he won't wake up, i felt like he was just sleeping. My mum says it is a good sign, that he left in a good way because he was a very pious man. I hope he is among the good people, and go to heaven. Tuesday, August 12, 2008 @ 10:42 PM
forgive me body Last nite i slept with my mum and my small sister. I've been having nightmares lately. 4th time this week. My mum says coz I've been sleeping late too much. Kathy says the same but also added that I think too much. I think i need to slow down. Coz i keep working, day after day. Doing this and rushing for that. School, tuition, study, assignments, club, RR etc. Maybe because my time management sucks. Or the workload is piling. I am thinking of giving up the position of assistant show director for the Makeup Club Showcase. I hope that would be a wise decision. Coz i know i need take it easy, my body will fail if i go on like this. Its 10.45 pm. I am officially exhausted. Usually around this time, i am still wide awake. I cannot rebel against my body's own needs anymore. Its what I've been doing and its not good. Monday, August 11, 2008 @ 10:41 PM
i'll try Its very tiring when you have to guard ur own feelings, especially towards someone who've known u well. Whom you've been quite comfortable talking with. But i have to. To avoid the same mistake. Its not the same when you're guarding ur feelings to a stranger, or just a normal friend. It feels different to me. @ 1:08 AM
feeling like a wallpaper A wallpaper - something u paste it on the wall. At first, u you'll fuss about it, its size, design etc. Whether it matches the room's theme whatsoever.. But eventually, after its up on the wall, you'll just stop noticing it. Once u know its there, then after that you don't bother about it much. You see it. But nothing happens. I know a wallpaper is not a verb, not a feeling. But i feel that. I feel very wallpaper. I feel like I"M a wallpaper. Especially now. Its mostly not about the part where we need to care about the size/design etc. But its more about the "just stop noticing it" part. I'm not aiming at anyone in particular, just that a group of people whom i thought were gonna be welcoming. I'm not sad. I just wished that i'd be more friendly, or sociable. Then maybe this wallpaper feeling won't be there. Am i THAT un-sociable? *Maybe there's something better. But at least i know some people who don't make me feel wallpaper-ish. Sunday, August 3, 2008 @ 1:46 AM
18 yrs + 3 days old I wanted to blog on my b'day but I was too busy settling my school stuff. So yes, i am now officially 18 yrs and 3 days old. ahaha. I would like to thank the following people for wishing me: * I put it in order of when i hear/read the birthday wish Mum(i stayed up late that nite and she was still awake so wished me first, ahaha) Tara (she thought it was my 17th birthday, ahahaa) My Sis (kept annoying me by asking what day that day was, when i obviously know the answer) Amalina (gave me a packet of chocolates, ahaha, it became my breakfast) Kathy (ask me when i'm buying my ds lite) Cherrie (wished me once just found out abt it) Charlotte (we ate at siamKitchen, thai food!) Ms Janny (same as cherrie, we were in her class, ahaha) Eliza (smsed me, so nice) Raihan (smsed me, wah, he remembers, hehe. btw, i want d whole world to know he was my most favourite boyfriend among all the guys i dated. ahaha) Kak Aqidah (smsed me too, very sweet) Zaki (eliza told him, but it was nice he did wished me too) Sock Hoon (she wished me and put it on the club blog!) Shimma (we talked on msn, then she rememberd) Wandi (my previous ngaji friend, just found out he wished me in friendster, thank yous) Ridzuan (my sp friend, just found out he wished me in friendster too, thank yous) Nurul (my M.I friend, just found out she wished me in friendster also, thank yous)  This screenshot was from the club blog. I just read it just now. It is sooo sweet. Awww..ahaha.Yes, i have got nothing better to do so that's why i'm blogging abt my birthday. Don't have much to say though. Sorry to those whom i might have missed out and didn't mention. There were some people whom i thought might remember, but never wished me, but its ok. I guess its karma. I didn't wish Han for his brithday on time and i felt really bad. Sorry to those whom i may not have wished earlier on! Especially to those who just wished me. ehehe I did the same thing last yr, i wrote it down on a piece of paper. But no one saw it, and i don't know where is it now! ahaha. My purpose of recording it down is so that one day if i were to come back and read, at least i know who were the people who remembered and cared about me at that point of time. And i'll be happy! ahahaha.. Yes, its so easy to make me happy. Buy me a chocolate and i'll smile, get me famous amos cookie and i'll be more than happy. * My sis bought me a present today. ehehe. Im buying hers nxt week. Just got my pay today. yeay yeay. |